New Year...

Little bit late on the boat here, but the first few days of 2015 was spent in bed ill, so here goes.

So 2014 has been one of the most roller coaster years of my life.  Finishing my first year of university with a 2:1 then to be catapulted into 2nd year has definitely been one of the most challenging things I've experienced and its really put a lot of things into perspective for me. 

I think I'm right in saying that this year has also been the year where I've met some people who I can truly call my best friends, people who, come what may will be there for me, and who I can support in the same way. Through all the crazy these people have stuck with me, and I hope that they continue to do so in the new year. 

I've lost friends as well this year, people who I've either grown apart from, or who I've chosen to lose touch with through need to maintain my own sanity. I know that sounds pretentious, but I really believe that nobody should keep toxic people in their lives. However, the people I have kept touch with, I am incredibly lucky to have and I'm keeping them around for as long as they'll have me.

So I want to get down a few 'resolutions' before it becomes too late (it is January 5th after all). I've got the the stage where promising to lose weight, and do work as soon is its set just aren't ever going to be realistic for me and the person I am (i.e. lazy)

Resolution 1: Stop Overthinking.

Anyone who knows me knows the terrible habit I have of overthinking. Whether it comes to work, friendship, or even relationships, I have a tendency to overanalyse everything. So, I'm going to stop worrying if I trip over my words slightly, or if I stumble over my own feet, because chances are: nobody saw it anyway. Also, to remember that I am not other people. What works for them may not work for me, so stop worrying about what they are doing.

Resolution 2: Be Ambitious.

Also: learn to spell ambitious without having autocorrect change it. But honestly, one thing I discovered in the last year was that nobody is going to do my work for me. Yeah handing in work, something that I've poured hours of work into may be scary as hell, but if I don't then nobody will ever see it. If I don't hand my CV in to that job of a lifetime then there will be a 100% I won't get it. No is the worst they can say.

Resolution 3: Take Photos/Record.

As a media student this is something I really should do more. At A-Level doing photography, I pretty much always had a camera on me. At uni this stopped, and I'm sad that it did. I want to go out and just explore and capture. They don't have to be masterpieces of photos, just anything will do. As long as its creative and personal.

Thats it. Short but sweet. Like I said, I've done the years of scribbled thoughts in notebooks telling myself to lose weight and be prettier. I think that comes in time to be honest. I'm happier with myself than I've ever been right now, and whilst I have my moments of doubt I think confidence just comes as a part of growing up. I always go on the mantra, 'if you haven't got it, fake it'.

Grace x